Traumatized…

Right now I don’t know what is exactly in my mind to write ….because I am in a kind of trauma state and I don’t know what to do????
Except letting the things come out of my mind ..at this place..

May be some of you can relate to and help out….

From the time I came to know ….
What does” Marriage “word means…
I was told that I am going to have an arranged one…..
Like everyone in my family….

And I was always okay with it….

I was never in any relationship or had any personal attachment to any guy up to present……

I was never the social butterfly….
What else I could say???

My new Year Resolution this time included a promise to myself….
That I am not going to waste a second of this year. ……over these things….

I have to focus completely on my studies and my long term goals….

Alas! ….I got a jolt today….
The parents are willing to see me married before next year…
In an arranged style …..

Although they haven’t decided the guy yet….but they will start looking soon..

They are kind enough and have allowed me to choose a guy of my choice but within my caste….

Taking into account my reserved nature
It’s very kind to hear such words from them….

From evening to this time ….just turning pages of books….
Can I study like this?????

Now the words ARRANGED MARRIAGE seem like a Devil to me….I can never trust on….

I can not be the victim of a future which is blank and has to be guessed for rest of the life….

I am not capable enough to find another way….

So this is me today…
And this post is written in the worst condition I could be…

I feel sorry for being a Coward in my real life.

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Author: itsmeharshi

Common girl trying to pen down her experience with life.....

23 thoughts on “Traumatized…”

  1. Relax Harshi..there’s nothing to be scared and worried about it..please dont think that i am lecturing you..just sharing my views..
    I understand you must be going through mixed emotions, but marriage is not all bad and arranged marriage also has it own share of happiness..The joy and fun of discovering a new person is always there..so relax..you will slowly get used to it..As of now concentrate on studies and work and be happy..😊

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    1. Thank you very much for your support Neethu….
      Whatever you said is correct ….I am stable now…I am going to pursue my education as planned and I hope I’ll be strong enough in future to accept the right person at the right time….Arranged marriage is gud no doubt.. .. But it’s unpredictable may be that’s why I got that bad…….I should not rush to life and the situations ….everything will take it’s time ….Thanks again for your words.

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  2. Arranged marriage is not bad as you think..
    Give yourself the chance to know the person and you may fell in love with him…he might be a good man…take your time and pray and ask God to help you!
    Best wishes!

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  3. Hello, Harshi. You know you’re one of Side by Side’s ever supportive follower. I find your blog really adorable. Therefore, I nominated you for The Sunshine Blogger Award which you can check out here https://eddiemaesungahid.wordpress.com/2016/01/07/its-my-time-to-shine/ … You might want to participate. πŸ™‚
    You’re not compelled to do it. That’s not a problem. This is just for fun to connect with other bloggers.

    Keep blogging! Love & blessings.

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  4. Wow… I cannot relate because I’m an American, and we don’t have arranged marriages over here (perhaps immigrants do, if it is part of their culture, but we don’t have arranged marriages in traditional American culture).

    So, to me it’s a very frightening idea. We also do not have official castes, though we do have unofficial class differences. I’m sure many American parents wouldn’t be happy if their children want to marry someone of a wildly different class level, so maybe it ends up being similar (though we officially only recognize judging people on their merits, I’m sure it isn’t always this way in practice).

    We value marrying for love, when we choose to marry, so the thought of arranged marriage seems strange to me… I can tell you that many Americans marry impulsively when they are too young to be practical–many times marriages end in divorce. So… perhaps the advice of experienced parents will be helpful? I have many friends who married young and later divorced, so they may have been better off with family input.

    I’m glad you get to choose who to marry. Good luck, and take your time with choosing. πŸ™‚

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  5. ‘Arranged’ marriage doesn’t mean there is no ‘love’. There must be a lot of examples around you (including your parents maybe).
    Just cuz ur parents arrange it doesn’t you have no say at all in this. I know it takes some degree of your freedom but the best thing you can do is be brave. Tragedies happen to all of us in many different forms. For you its this.
    Just cuz its arranged, doesn’t means you don’t get to know the guy before marriage. Have faith in your parents. Good things will happen πŸ™‚

    And to be honest.. Statistically, arranged marriages are more successful. To your surprise, I’m a 20 y/o guy and yes i believe that. In my college i haven’t seen any such relationship that lasts forever (thats rare trust me)
    Okay enough of this crap. Sorry for such long and weird comment (i am new to blogging.. Joined last night πŸ˜› )
    Goodluck
    Stay strong πŸ™‚

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    1. Thanks a lot man for your positive insight…
      I am not against arranged marriage…in fact it’s going to be arranged marriage in my case…
      This post was written by me in a disturbed condition…I wasn’t ready to accept few things…I was in panic and nervous….now everything is fine….I trust my parents and myself ….”Soulmates are not born but created” …..one of a beautiful blogger told me….I believe the same….
      Sorry for all that lecture….
      Wish you a happy blogging😊😊😊

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  6. ‘Arranged’ marriage doesn’t mean there is no ‘love’. There must be a lot of examples around you (including your parents maybe).
    Just cuz ur parents arrange it doesn’t you have no say at all in this. I know it takes some degree of your freedom but the best thing you can do is be brave. Tragedies happen to all of us in many different forms. For you its this.
    Just cuz its arranged, doesn’t means you don’t get to know the guy before marriage. Have faith in your parents. Good things will happen πŸ™‚

    And to be honest.. Statistically, arranged marriages are more successful. To your surprise, I’m a 20 y/o guy and yes i believe that. In my college i haven’t seen any such relationship that lasts forever (thats rare trust me)
    Okay enough of this crap. Sorry for such long and weird comment (i am new to blogging.. Joined last night πŸ˜› )
    Goodluck
    Stay strong πŸ™‚

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  7. Oh by this time you must have come out of it…..feels nice to read something like this…..and your straight forward nature…..it has some magnetism…..don’t worry, time is what decides next….. And as far as possible reserved person like you can adjust in any environment….

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